Dear Prince Zanon,
I have safely returned to my little piece of home, but the journey was not without its troubles. Rough seas made it nearly impossible for us to gain any headwind, which meant that we were overdue by a week. Luckily, we made it to shore in one piece, although I am almost certain that Sweet Jo lost weight with the seasickness. I find myself a seasoned traveler now, so do no worry for my own constitution-- I fared as well as can be expected.
The journey back to Macendia was short and uneventful. While the tone of my mind upon leaving Colchis was not as hopeful, being around the familiar autumn sights of my childhood home has been good for my soul. While it may take my heart longer to heal than I would like, Ophelia has been able to soothe the ache. I am pleased for her company, and she is content in the daily runs across every acre of our home.
I had thought to lie to you, for it would be nearly impossible for you to know if I was telling the truth or not. After all, the written word makes it easy to hide the true intentions of the words behind them. But I find myself needing a way to properly express my emotions without putting the burden on my family.
My mother is pregnant. My sisters struggle to find a way to manage both being Queen. Nana has not spoken to me in weeks. And Imma does not know what to say. I confess, my reaction to the news was not what would have been acceptable, but I could not help leaving the room once I found out. I should have been the excited child for another sibling, yet all I could do was feel as if the Gods enjoy the chances that arise to mock me. But I have accepted my inability to properly land a husband and have placed the task on someone else.
And now, in the safety of my childhood’s innocence, I feel as if I might be able to come to terms with everything in a far more peaceful light.
I wish things could have been different. But that is not to be, and I must put my fate in the hands of those who would see me settled outside of my father’s house.
How is Princess Evras? I hope the child is still safe within her womb. I am truly excited for you, friend. I have made a point to offer up a daily tithing to the Gods in her name and yours, in hopes that your son or daughter comes into the world screaming and bright with life. I pray for you, too, that the Gods may ease your mind and bring a quick resolution to the war. I pray that you may find it in your heart to forgive Vangelis-- there was no cruel intentions in his act. Please, I must continue to ask you to be gentle with Lady Thea. I hold no blame in her either, and if you cannot find it in yourself to show her some kindness for your sister, I will ask you to do so for me. She is family, and nothing is more important than that.
Stay safe, my friend. May the Gods keep you and your family safe.
Lady Selene
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