Sirdar Onuphrious H’Shiefa.
I will not hide the fact that I have found shelter at the Evening Star Palace. Even though I have barely left the rooms that I have been graciously been given, it is now practically common knowledge that I am here. I can only hope that the speculation surrounding my change in residence has not brought a great amount of shame to you -- although you did not raise me to be foolish enough to believe that you have been spared from the wicked rumor mill that is circulating my name… or lack thereof.
I know that you are unlikely to find any sort of faith in my words as the world sees me as the product of a great lie and thus I am incapable of being honest. However, I implore you to remember the values that you have instilled into me. The fleeting interactions I had with the late Pharaoh would never be enough to override the lessons you taught me. You have always known me to be truthful during the worst of times. So, with that being said, please believe me when I say that my decision to turn to the Naddars in this great time of personal need was not made to spurn you or bring you any sort of disrespect. I simply had nowhere else to go. I know that there is a deep hurt between us that will take a long time to heal, but I do not want this to deepen the divide between us. After all, I am sure you know that if given the choice I would always choose to be a mere Lord over a prince if it means that I have the right to call you Father.
Regardless, I do not write to you to merely state what you undoubtedly already know. Nor shall I ask for what has happened to be undone. The three weeks of silence has shown me that you will not be swayed on this matter. Even though it breaks my heart and the pain that I feel cannot be put into words, I have to at least recognize that you are unlikely to ever call me your son again. I might not be capable of saying this aloud just yet, but I know that you are a busy man and there’s no use in wasting your time with matters that are seemingly resolved.
However, accepting this does not mean that there needs to be such a deafening silence between us. You are a man of great wisdom, who taught me many things and still have many lessons to impart upon me. I know now that I am not your blood. This does not mean that you are still not the greatest of my teachers. Please, I implore you to set this crime that was not even my own doing aside. As weak as it might sound, I miss having your guidance in my life, and even if it could never be the way that it used to be, talking to you merely as a prince talks to a lord is far better than the deafening silence that has thus far passed between us.
Your Prince,
Sutekh H’Naddar
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