Prince Vangelis,
I wish I could point you in the right direction, however I can see that our differing upbringing and experience makes it hard to see either side. I do not think a Taengean can accurately point a Colchian towards an easy answer. It’s simple to see that life has taken us down differing paths, ones that have shown us how different life can be.
My life is spent watching others. Husbands and wives, lovers and friends. There is not much we can do but watch. And in that watching, I have observed much about people in a social setting. But your life has been so different than mine. I could not imagine being in your shoes, and seeing life the way you’ve had to see it.
I have faith that you will figure it out, that you will be able to bring peace to your family. I worry that you will see this as a failure of self when the marriage and the trauma of it is not your fault. The marriage is their own, and seems to have problems that they need to work out. I can say that I would never dream of trying to bring peace to Pia through her marriage. But, then again, I am not the head of a house, and a royal to boot. I am sure you will come to a conclusion that will help to bring you peace into your home. I am not the male head of house: I am but a woman who does not have the experience you have.
I have told you before that my time on Colchis was more fondly spent then you realize. And I do not think that you know how hard it was for me to leave the shores.
Prince, I do not have the answer on how to handle it. I know that in Taegnea, marriages are vastly different. Men and wives cheat without a second thought. I, however, do not look at marriage as something to be taken lightly. I believe the marriage bed is between a man and his wife and it is not to be shared, but I am not seen as the normal Taengean. I enjoy my people, but do not always agree with the ways they enjoy.
Maybe I am a bit sheltered. Maybe I just do not understand marriage. But I can tell you that I do have the most fond wish that you may find a solution that works best for your family. And that one marriage, however rocky, does nothing to damper the high opinion I have of the Kotas family. Nor does it make me less fond of you or your brothers.
I pray that my own husband can show me as much considering in our marriage as you show towards the marriage of your brother and his wife.
Do not be so hard on yourself, my prince.
May the Gods give you the fortitude to find a solution and keep your family safe. But most of all, I wish for your health and happiness, Vangelis.
Selene
P.S- I feel all men share that same sentiment when they mount a horse. Just be careful? I do not think I can come running back to Colchis, should you find yourself wounded. Please let me know the moment you ride him. And I hope you can recreate the situation within your letters so that I may experience it as if I was there myself.
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